My Quest for God's Best

August 25, 2014

"Dear Lord, can You please give me a love life? And if it would not be too much to ask, can you make him a man who would be a loving and faithful partner, a good provider and a responsible father? Please help me find him. There are millions of male species in this world and it would really be too difficult for me to find him. I'm scared of finding the wrong guy and getting hurt in the end. I would need Your divine intervention to find Mr. Right. Lord, please give me three signs so I would know it's him (enumerates the signs... it's a top secret between Him and me)." - this was an ugly duckling's prayer in the hope of finding her Prince Charming.

It was December 2002 when I first prayed for you. I was sixteen and I know I'm too young to be asking for a love life. Perhaps, love should be the least of my priority but I was worried. Almost every girlfriend I have had admirers/suitors. I had none. I'm worried of not being attractive enough for you to notice I even existed. I also remembered when papa told us that we should seek God's help in finding our one true love. I know it would take time but I didn't know for how long. I just wished, hoped and prayed every night, since then, that someday, in God's help, I'll be able to find true love in you.

Finding you was never easy. Honestly, it was frustrating. It even came to a point where I wanted to believe that maybe what I was asking for was too good to be true. Maybe I was asking for too much.. I'm looking for Mr. Perfect after all, how can that not be too much?!? Doubt started to eat every bit of hope that I have of finding you. But that didn't stop me from praying. I was persistent. Maybe, I was very demanding. I may have doubts but I tried to keep my faith and believe in the promise of the scripture that says: "Ask and you shall receive; seek and you shall find". So I did pray for you still, every night. I prayed for you religiously every night, of every week, of every month, of every year that passed. Until that day when you finally came...

Two thousand and eleven. Nine years. I can still remember that ordinary day which had turned into an extraordinary moment of my life. All the three signs that I've been praying for nine long years has simultaneously happened before my very eyes. It was unbelievable! I was speechless and you were clueless. I was very happy I wanted to scream but I decided to celebrate in silence. My heart was full of gratitude to the Almighty for He has always answered all of my prayers. It took time but it doesn't matter. I have finally found you and that's what matters to me now. You are definitely, undoubtedly and undeniably my answered prayer.

Two thousand and twelve. Exactly a year after that miraculous day when God showed me the three signs, I found myself standing before a man who was on his knees asking me to marry him. I didn't know what to do. I was having a hard time processing my thoughts. I was happy because I've finally found God's best for me but I was scared of the thought of living a "married" life. I didn't understand myself either for not knowing what to say. This is actually what I've loooong been waiting for but is this really what I want? I was thinking... I was taking my time I almost forgot that you're still on your knees waiting for my answer.

Others may have find it too fast but how can I say "no" to this man who traveled half the globe, sacrificed his very promising career as an engineer abroad and gave up his comfortable life just to stay with me for good in the hope of making me happy for the rest of his life? He has indeed sacrificed a lot. A lot that I started to feel scared of not being worthy enough of his love. I felt scared but I'm not letting that fear stand on the way of my happiness. I'm not letting go of this man who I've prayed for 10 long years. I'm not going to break his heart because doing so would just hurt me twice as much. I'll never let go of the ONLY man who has made every moment of my life happier. And so, I said the sweetest "Yes" that I've ever uttered in my entire life.

Time flies so fast. It has been a year already since that day we made a sacred vow to love and cherish each other forever. Until now, I still can't help myself to stare at you every night, watch you while asleep and wonder what I could have done in my lifetime to deserve such a very kind, caring and loving husband like you. You are the best husband in the whole wide world and I am the most blest wife in the entire universe for having you! Thank you for always making me the happiest wife ever!

You are the reason why I would always believe in miracles; that God truly listens and answers prayers; and that dreams really do come true. Actually, you are more than what I have ever dreamed of, far better than what I have ever imagined and the best of what I have expected. You are every woman's ideal man and I will forever be very grateful for being the "chosen one" to be your better half. I love you with every beat of my heart. 

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